Since it’s a whole new year, I’ve decided that I might as well start on a new blog. The problem with blogs though, is that I never actually keep one for more than a year. In fact, I have a few blogs scattered all over the internet, none of them really written in. The longest I’ve actually kept a blog would be around… at least three months, and that’s on livejournal under my real name. I might have continued writing in it if my mother hadn’t found it; I prefer to keep my privacy, and  I would rather avoid people I know reading my blog. Especially if I want to write about them.

Anyway, the main reason why I’ve started blogging again is because I need a place to vent. I’m normally rather quiet with my family, unlike my brother, mainly because every time I talk, my family members would tell me that I’ve already said what I had wanted to say, and I can never remember whether I told people certain information before or not. Hence, to avoid embarrassing myself any further, I’d rather not talk, especially if the information I have is not relevant to the topic at hand, and it seems that none of my family members are interested in the topics I’m interested in.

And, I do need a place where I can air my views, because if I don’t, everything will just build up, until I end up with a horrible mental condition or something (budding Psychology student here). If I keep everything inside, it would be much harder for my ego to balance my superego (where all my conscious thoughts gather, and that is where I would start to go crazy. It’s for my mental health, really, though I wouldn’t mind it if a similar-minded person came across my blog.

Which leads to my next point: quiet time. This is the second reason why I want to keep a blog. According to my pastor at Bartley Christian Church (even though I attend Wesley Methodist now, I’m still considered a member of Bartley, since I never officially transfered), it would be much easier to remember the blessings and teachings of God when I actually write it down and review it from time to time. It’s extremely tedious, yes, but my relationship with God is at an all time low right now. I’ve been an Agnostic before, but now, I feel I know too much to go back to what it was like previously, especially since I wasn’t very happy at all then. According to Switchfoot’s “This Is Home”, I can’t go back to what things were.

Either way though, my views on religion is still extremely shaky, so it would be better for me to write them all down that just keep them in my head, it’ll be much easier to track them. Just in case they change or anything like that, though I highly doubt they would.

So… what have I been up to? Not much really, except that today had been rather terrible. Not only did I wake up late for Molecular and Cell Biology, my overzealous immune system just had to act up in an unwarranted case of hay fever. During dinner, I was rather rude to my grandparents, though I did make it up to them later by being extra nice. Though for some reason what I said to them still resonates in my mind. Must be the guilt, I guess.

Anyway, it’s late now, and I have to go back to sleep. I’ll write more later in times to come.